One morning in the fall of 2010, my husband got out of bed and crashed to the floor, unconscious. As Eddie came to, he complained of a painful pressure in his chest. In the hospital, his condition worsened. Every test confirmed what I as a nurse already knew, that his heart was shutting down. A day later he died.
As I mourned Eddie’s death, I worried that it would plunge me deeper into an episode of depression that had begun earlier that spring after a succession of harrowing family crises.
My mother had sporadically suffered from debilitating depression, and the Black Dog hounded me as well. As a longtime health care provider, I had developed a toolbox of remedies to manage my symptoms and turn around my dark moods. I took Wellbutrin, an antidepressant, which helped for several years. I applied myself diligently to exercise, meditation, and dance. I soaked up extra sun and sleep.
As my mood darkened during the summer before Eddie’s death, I pulled out all the well-sharpened tools. They didn’t work. “The lights are going out,” I told him, by which I meant my emotional vitality was fading.
I wondered whether the shock of my husband’s sudden death would reset the wiring of my mangled, 66-year-old brain. It did not. Within a couple of months, the depression emerged from my grief in full force, and from then on indisputably ruled the roost. I experienced an incapacitating weariness, sleeping as many as 18 hours a day. While I never crafted a suicide plan, a longing for death intruded itself into every corner of my waking mind. I wandered the streets, hoping to be hit by a truck. No person, no activity, no event penetrated the darkness. This episode of major depression, by far my worst, lasted for three years.
During that time, I was treated by a succession of psychiatrists and prescribed 10 or more different medicines in the various combinations and augmentations that the guidelines advise. I was hospitalized twice. I underwent a 12-session course of electroconvulsive therapy (ECT), which made a small difference, as if parking lights were dimly shining through the fog. I stopped thinking about death all the time, but instead worried about memory loss and the likelihood of relapse. The logistics of keeping up the ECT treatments — the transportation and the necessary caregiving of friends — became impossible to maintain.
I eventually bonded with an older Austrian psychiatrist. While under her care, I secretly tapered myself off my medicines to see what of my original self remained. Little changed, except that I experienced anxiety in addition to my other symptoms.
When I admitted to my psychiatrist that I had made myself drug free, another option emerged. At the proverbial end of the road, where every other class of antidepressant and several other types of psychotropic medication had failed, she started me on tranylcypromine (Parnate). It belongs to the first family of antidepressants, called monoamine oxidase inhibitors (MAOIs), which were discovered in the late 1950s. Parnate was approved in the U.S. for treating depression in 1961.
Though long acknowledged to be highly effective in the management of treatment-resistant depression, MAOIs have been linked to two potentially serious risks: serotonin syndrome and hypertensive crisis. Later generations of allegedly better antidepressants replaced MAOIs. They are now seen as “drugs of last resort,” and have all but disappeared from the list of drugs that doctors prescribe for depression.
I accepted the Parnate prescription with the same hopelessness with which I had accepted the others. I abided by the complex food restriction lists, though I immediately noticed major discrepancies in them.
About 10 days later, sitting in my parked car, I heard on the radio the legendary jazz saxophonist Ben Webster. A shiver of pleasure invigorated me. Later in the day, I bought bags of fresh food at the market, smiled at a chubby baby, and became overwhelmed by the devotion of a friend. The lights were blinking brightly, and then miraculously they were staying on.
I’ve been well now for four years, in my right mind because of an old, inexpensive, and uncommonly prescribed drug.
I’ve been well now for four years, in my right mind because of an old, inexpensive, and uncommonly prescribed drug. I’ve grown increasingly appalled at how long it took for a clinician to prescribe it and that ECT, a costly and invasive procedure, was prescribed before I was finally offered this single oral medication that gave me such rapid and unequivocal relief.
I have sorted through the notorious risks of MAOIs and determined that they were greatly exaggerated and outdated. An editorial entitled “Much Ado About Nothing” by Dr. Ken Gillman, an Australian neuropharmacologist who is a world expert on MAOIs and serotonin toxicity, provides a succinct and comprehensive overview that supports my own conclusions.
According to recent evidence summarized by Gillman, while many drugs were once thought to pose serious risks if taken with MAOIs, only the combination of MAOIs with drugs that affect the uptake of serotonin cause serotonin toxicity and are of significant concern. These include Prozac and other antidepressants in the family of serotonin reuptake inhibitors; the antihistamine chlorpheniramine; and the opioid-based pain medications Demerol and tramadol.
Tyramine, an amino acid found largely in aged, fermented, cured, and spoiled foods, when combined with an MAOI can cause the rapid increase in blood pressure known as a hypertensive crisis. Aged cheeses were once the most problematic food. Fortunately, modern food processing techniques have greatly lowered dietary tyramine levels, and many foods once implicated in causing hypertensive crisis, such as coffee, most types of alcohol, and chocolate, have been found to have no significant amounts of tyramine. The risk of hypertensive crisis is dose related, so consuming only small portions of tyramine-containing foods is an obvious precaution. While vigilance is important when taking any drug, the risk of hypertensive crisis with MAOIs has been overblown, and a strict no-tyramine diet is unnecessary.
A doctor friend once told me that if a medicine does not have any side effects, it probably doesn’t work. The common side effects of MAOIs, insomnia and lightheadedness, were for me temporary and manageable. My few months of insomnia were difficult, but also oddly joyful because I was no longer depressed. I laid in bed at night giggling with relief, reminiscing about old times when I had been kind, brilliant, full of fun. It was like being reunited with an adored identical twin who the disease had convinced me was dead.
No drug is right for everyone, and I am sure I responded to Parnate in a particular neurochemical way that others with similar symptoms might not. Yet given the effectiveness and relative safety of MAOIs, how can withholding them in favor of newer drugs that patients report to be ineffective, and that come with their own worrisome risk profiles, be justified?
More than 40 percent of people with depression do not experience a meaningful response to any of the second- and third-generation antidepressants. Among those who do, the response is often ephemeral, and relapse is common.
Since the patent on most MAOIs expired decades ago, it is not in the financial interest of drug companies to market these older, inexpensive medicines. Generations of doctors have been warned against MAOIs, have no experience using them, and are reluctant to prescribe them. This shameful blindness has been unfortunate for the countless people with major depression who might have benefited from their use. It will take strong advocacy by patients to undermine psychiatry’s entrenched prejudice against them.
Waking up in one’s right mind is at least half of what an individual needs to navigate the joy and suffering that is the human condition. Thanks to an almost-forgotten and long-discredited medicine, I am vibrantly engaged. Life is full.
Sue Trupin worked as a staff nurse in the adult medical clinics of San Francisco General Hospital for more than 30 years.
I’ve been seeing psychiatrist since I was 21 years old. I’ve been diagnosed with a major depressive disorder, OCD, social anxiety disorder, and generalized anxiety disorder.
In all those years I’ve been prescribed every SSRI available; they all failed, made my condition much worse and, the side effects were crippling.
I’ve also been on many SSNI’s that provided no relief; I was prescribed numerous tricyclics that didn’t help; I was on Wellutrin for a year, it didn’t do a thing for my depression, and all that drug caused me to have was uncontrolable body movements.
My last psychiatrist wanted me to try Cymbalta again combined with Zyprexa. I told him, “no”. I cannot tolerate any SSRI. Why won’t doctors listen? He knew my history of not responding well to that class of drug. Why push it? I tried Zyprexa in the past and after two weeks I had significant lower back pain. Thankfully the pain ceased after I quit the $300.00 a month Zyprexa.
I’ve been researching MAOI’s for quite a while, and I inquired about this class of medication with my last psychiatrist. He said he would not prescribe me an MAOI because of the “serious” side effects. Instead he wanted me to under go ECT treatments.
For one thing my insurance wont cover ECT, and another thing I wouldn’t remotely consider shock therapy even if my insurance covered it. I can’t rationalize with the idea that electric shock therapy is “safer” and more effective than an MAIO.
Needless to say I gave up with that psychiatrist. Good bye. He just seemed too bewildered with what to do with me. I’m in the process of trying to find a new therapist. That’s not an easy feat to accomplish. I’d probably be better off with seeing a psychiatric nurse? I don’t no. Given my old age and decending into a darker and darker pit in life, I just feel the world of mental health care travels on a short line railroad. Back and forth, on its little jaunt patient to patient, and people like me who’ve gotten no relief from their “modern wonder drugs” continue to suffer because they refuse to open their minds and accept that something old (MAOI’s) is something MUCH better.
Bob, I am so sorry to hear about your struggles. The only thing I can think of is outpatient treatment. My hospital will assign a psychiatrist and provide group therapy. You may try consulting with you local mental health hospital. Once you get put on the meds, an outside doc can just monitor and maintain. I had doctors refuse too. I just went on to the next. Also, there is tons of info on psychotropical.com including a letter to your doctor why to be put on parnate or an MAOI. Good luck.
Thank you for the ray of hope that I found in your article. I have been suffering through a drug resistant depression for approximately 2 years. Parnate is in the plan if my current medication regimen doesn’t work. I can’t even begin to tell you how afraid I am. I too am a seasoned registered nurse, but this disease has rocked me to my core. I can’t wait for the day when I can enjoy life again.
I would just like to add, for any psychiatrist who may reading this, I am hopeful that there may soon be a shift in the near future. I refer you to
Revitalizing monoamine oxidase inhibitors: a call for action
First two paragraphs:
“This statement represents the view of the “International MAOI Expert Group” which is a group of clinicians, academics, and researchers with a special interest in monoamine oxidase inhibitors (MAOIs). This group was formed in March 2018 to promote actions aimed at: improving education; stimulating research; increasing clinical usage; and assuring continued availability of MAOIs worldwide.
Non-selective irreversible MAOIs, including tranylcypromine, phenelzine, isocarboxazid, and the Selegiline Transdermal System (STS), can be dramatically effective for patients with biological depressive illnesses (e.g., melancholia and bipolar depression). It has been established by more than 50 years of research, including randomized double-blind studies, and clinical experience, that these medications can induce full remission when other antidepressants, combinations, and augmentation strategies, and even electroconvulsive therapy (ECT), have failed. 1 – 4 Because of their unique pharmacological properties, the efficacy of non-selective irreversible MAOIs is superior, in a proportion of patients, to more recently developed medications, including moclobemide, a reversible inhibitor of MAO-A, or MAO-B-selective doses of selegiline. Patients may experience fewer side effects with MAOIs than with other antidepressants; for example, the low rates of weight gain, cognitive dysfunction and sexual side effects with tranylcypromine and selegiline (STS) are a major advantage for many patients. 5 , 6 Despite these valuable attributes these vital life-saving antidepressant drugs are becoming unaffordable (because the cost has inexplicably escalated by about 50-fold), less available, or even unavailable, in many countries around the world.”
I am also seeing debates starting in many other professional settings as well. Please help those who continue to suffer as we suffered. Thank you.
I, too, am an RN of over 30 years. Have slowly been slipping into a black hole that I can’t “crawl out of.” My mother had major depression her entire life. I see my ARNP next week and plan to ask about Parnate. Thanks so much for your article, gives me hope!
The only difference in our stories is I had 9 ECTs which did absolutely nothing for me but lose memories. I gave up and went into a deep depression and stayed there. I finally called Research Hospital who put me in touch with a doctor who put me on Parnate. Unfortunately it’s not inexpensive anymore, even in generic. But I will never give it up because it is a lifelong brain chemical condition. The insurance company is trying to get me to switch to phenelzine but Dr. Gillman said it causes weight gain and liver damage. I’m negotiating. Dr. Gillman’s summarization should help me win. Thank you for sharing your story.
My story is very similar. I am 49 years old and have been suffering from treatment resistant depression/bipolar II disorder, ADHD, anxiety, panic attacks, since childhood. My first suicide attempt took place in the sixth grade. Most recently I suffered from agoraphobia for almost three years because I stopped all my meds out of total frustration. I have been hospitalized several times, tried ECT, TMS,CBT,DBT, you name it. I finally got to a point where I was so frustrated being prescribed the same medications over and over again. I looked back on my med history and did my own research on what has worked and what hasn’t worked. The only thing that really stood out was and emsam. But, that only lasted for about seven or eight months. Finally I came across parnate. It took me going 3 three different doctors including the hospital to finally find somebody to prescribe an MAOI for me. Within less than two weeks, I had the same response to you it is. I believe mine started with feeling happy hearing a song on the radio and just having the energy need to do things I’m wanting to leave the house. After suffering from agoraphobia for almost three years, that was huge.
I then finally convinced my doc to prescribe ADHD meds. Last, I rejected his recommendation of a mood stabilizer in a pretty free sample packet and researched my own. Most of my research came from Dr. Ken Gillman too. I’m glad you are spreading the word.
I wouldn’t discount phenelzine. Yes, it can cause weight gain, but I understand the incidence of liver damage is rare.
I’ve been taking phenelzine for two years. It has worked for my anxiety and depression where numerous newer medications failed.
Unfortunately, before trying it, I spent 20 years being shuffled around on the newer drugs with little relief.
I concur with this article about the bad name MAOIs have nowadays, and the reluctance of phychiatrists to prescribe them.
My doctor was starting to mention ECT as the next option for me. It was only after I specifically requested phenelzine that he eventually prescribed it.
I had done my own research and this drug seemed well suited to my symptoms of chronic anxiety and dysthymia.
I suppose that, given the general anti-MAOI sentiment in present-day psychiatry, I should be grateful he was open to my suggestion.
But I can’t help but feel somewhat bitter about all those wasted years of suffering.
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